I needed to make a list of things holding me back and write it down. I figure here is as good place so I can be reminded of these things.
1. Alcohol - This one is a given. When I'm not drinking, I feel better and I have no excuse to let things slide. That's why I'm putting this one in check and have been doing so for quite some time now.
2. Undeserved Favors - I'm sick of people taking advantage of me. There are some people who deserve and reciprocate both my kindness and ability. I need to cast aside all the others. This is not in the superficial "LA" way, but in my way. I don't need someone to be able to give me something in return to help them. I do need them to want to do so. I also need them to understand and appreciate what I do for them.
3. Focus and Analyze - I need to analyze an idea completely before I just dive the fuck in. I also need to evaluate what I'm doing as things progress. If it's going nowhere, dump it. I have like 4 of these right now. They are on the way out.
4. Motivation and Movement - I need to start doing things and going place to develop the habit. I get excited about going to shoot something by myself and I don't out of laziness. This is an easy fix. Once the habit is there, the question fails to exist. I just go because that is the only option.
