fucking life

It's my Grandfather's birthday today. I called him to wish him a happy birthday. My grandma has bad circulation and had her leg amputated this year. I'm pretty much weeping right now. I'm talking to him and understanding how he feels. It's his birthday. He's been dealing with so much. He's fought cancer over the last year. Lost his hair and been so weak. He's an amazing...AMAZING MAN! I want him to understand how strongly I feel for him. How I cannot relate that fact because that is not him as a man. FUCK!!!!!!! And this is life. This is the strength of people we care about. And this is why I am crying right now.